Contemplating Life.

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less than only a week and holidays have been a tough one for me. juggling between ka-chings (work) , school, family, cca requires good time management skills and im sad to say im really poor at it.

i feel that holidays now is a torture.
i have nth much to look forward for.
i feel relatively empty.
it feels like a suddenly motion stop of the flow.
i feel that my circle is shrinking...

right now, i feel guilty for letting certain people down, especially my peers in baracuda batucada..

baracuda batucada, not just a name for show.
its more than a cca, its more than just friends.
its a bond.
its a four letter word with a thousand meanings.

i can still vividly recall all those gd times and bad times we went thru tgt.
those gruelling practises.
those scoldings from the seniors.
those sweat which contains the meaning of achievements.
those rewarding performances  are the results of our hard work.

my yr1 days have been most fruitful in baracuda, where nth else matters more than music and the peers. we played we sweat we smiled. we became good friends and often care for each other.

but now, i find myself drifting further n further apart from the bond, which is really saddening. partly i guess its my fault for not putting in enough effort =[

i look forward to the upcoming practises that i can attend.
i cant wait for my work assignment to end.